We meet again, and this time I’m in my worst mood ever. I’ve realized that people are starting to get their butt into my business, although I’ve told them NOT to do so. I don’t really care about it actually, but they really are driving me crazy!

 

Who do they think I am? I’ve got nothing to do with them, and I did tell them to go to hell... Yeah, kinda harsh, but that’s the only way I thought would work well. Unfortunately, it didn’t work at all. Instead, they call me with names... until now.

 

Okay, I’m gonna be frank here, and I guess this is the only way to make me feel better.

 

People are starting to label me as “arrogant” or “snobbish” although I’m not that kind of person, to tell you honestly. Yeah, yeah... I do look like a horrible monster who doesn’t know how to smile as sweet as Vicky Zhao Wei or maybe the hottest Miss Universe! Another one, I just don’t want to talk most of the time... Well, why should I? If there's nothing necessary for me to talk, then I guess I shouldn't do so. I prefer to keep quiet, but if they wanna talk to me as much as they want, then go on! I won’t bite! Chikushou... They REALLY don’t have to talk behind my back! (OR insult me that badly...) It’s not just about me being ‘ferocious’, but there’re so many things... I just don’t know where I should start. In short, I’m always being offended by these cruel people... Their hobby, I presume.

 

Fine... to make this crystal clear, I’m most ticked off by these human beings who only know how to criticize, who only know how to condemn me although I don’t think that the things I’ve made are categorized as “sin”. Frankly, I DON’T think that you guys are SOOO damn fucking perfect damn it!!!  You know what??? These guys are so stupid, so mindless, so silly... What actually do they want from me? I’ve got no money, what else d’ya want? You’re satisfied enough to make me angry with you?

 

I know it’s useless even if I kept on blabbering nonsense here, they would never listen. Cuz they keep on thinking that they’re so good at everything, WITHOUT realizing they’re as stupid as me, as silly as me, whatever it is. All the things I’ve made seemed so low to them, what else do you guys expect from me? Making this blog is enough for me to get pissed off. It’s okay to criticize IF they want me to improve my work, fine with me. But these damned people really are starting to get over the limit.

 

Say, we all have our own ways to express our feelings, and our ideas are absolutely different if to be compared with the others, no? Then what would you feel when a bunch of idiots told you that all the things you’ve done using your own creativity, your own ideas, with your OWN ways... are not effective, worst ideas in the whole wide world, what so ever... Those idiots don’t even have anything to do with us. Even if we fail, what’s with them? Suka hati aku la wei, nak buat apa pun yang ko sibuk memandai nak tukar idea orang tu apsal? Kau bukannya terer sangat pun, macamlah kau manusia yang paling genius kat dunia ni, apa benda yang aku buat semua salah. Blah ah kau, suka sangat nak jatuhkan orang lain– hanya nak jaga nama ‘baik’ sendiri yang tak berapa popular pun.  Really, orang macam ni memang menyusahkan orang lain.  As the result, *exhales* I’ve become like this.

 

Sure, I’m a VERY FRANK person, and I don’t care about those guys. But at least, I DO have feelings, and right now I still don’t wanna reveal their names – which means; even though I’m such a mean person, I do understand  their feelings, although they hurt me a lot (I DON’T CARE, but I DO understand. Compare these two, please.) You’ll never know how much they’ve hurt my feelings already. I know I’m not good, I know I’m not as perfect as them... Somehow they don’t have to be SO mean when it comes to ‘giving opinions’ or should I say, INSULTING??? At least tell me what I am not good at, that’s all. Not to tease my own way, my attitude, my everything!  Tell me what should I do to make myself better, WITH good manners. What’s the problem with that?

 

I just hate to make such a big fuss about my social life, but I really can’t stand this anymore. Mind your manner, that’s the most important thing you guys have to worry about.  Cuz you’ll never know how people around you feel when you say something which might hurt them badly, and to make it worse, those pathetic people are starting to lose their confidence on doing anything. Anything, including things they’re good at. Those people you’ve hurt might as well forgive you, but what if you keep on doing the same thing (hurting them) over and over again? Even YOU can’t stand it, ne? Then, stop doing things YOU don’t like to the others, would you?

 

You’ve got to remember this as well:  saying the truth isn’t a crime nor a sin, it’s okay to tell someone that he/she isn’t good at certain things... but hurting someone with your words might be a big trouble since you’ll never know what will happen to you in the future. You and that person might switch places, who knows?

 

Huh... whatever it is, I really hope those people know that they’ve done something bad to me.  And all I’ve said above isn’t enough if to be matched up to the things they did to me, but I forgive them. They might as well don’t know what they have done, so I really really hope they can change their attitude. I’m not a prophet, therefore I’m not a faultless human being... even you. It’s impossible for us to be perfect, and we all have our own abilities, capabilities... So, stop insulting others’ weaknesses just because you want to be a so-called-perfectionist. No, you’re not perfect. Others praise you that because they just want you to become better. Obviously, they would never say that you suck (but frankly, you DO suck to me), cuz they're trying to keep you in a good mood, otherwise you're gonna be down-hearted, got it??? Jangan perasan tak tentu pasal, pastu sakitkan hati orang lain!

 

Just because I told you I'm an open-minded person, you treat me as if I've got no feelings at all. No, you've misunderstood me since the beginning. An open-minded person may be an individual who accepts anything bad about her/him, but that doesn't mean that he or she has no feelings at all. This kind of people have their own patience limit, so beware. They might explode whenever they want, just like me right now.

 

 

Think about it.

 

 

This is my very last warning. If you ever make me feel like hell again, I’m not gonna forgive you. Our friendship’s OVER, that’s for sure. And don’t worry about it, I’ll surely inform you about it when it happens someday. I’m not the one who insults people with ‘sweet’ words.

 

 

- saper makan cili dia rasa pedas, lantak kau la nak buat apa pun. Aku dah malas nak layan -